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Today everything seem quiet.
I dunno what to say... 3.27 am in the morning... Labels: lost
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First, THANK YOU mizael... for the wonderful tag...
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Fun & excitement with my pals family!!!
Finally Miss Sicchu sent me the photos! =DDD
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Today had my management presentation and i'm really glad...
today baby posted a very sweet post on our blog without me asking...
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Say whatever you want...
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I dont need to say much...
My condolences to simon... Okiez... Start of my blog post... i get this... late by a few days... but ya... thank you lehs miss L... haha... *FAINT* Rules: The weird things about me… 2) I cannot sleep without disturbing Pixie my dear girl... 3) I can't hate people like a scorpio does... (even though i am one...) 4) I can fall asleep walking... 5) I think i am generally not weird... (or so i think...) 6) I am half scared of cockroaches... And the 6 people to tag~ 1) Sheena Ng Meow... hehe... too bad people... if u read this, do your part...
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[NOTE: this post has been edited as i found tt the content was too explicit.]
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Today has been a real hectic day for me...
Welcome to reality!
OT Attachment...
Change to crocs.
Change to scrub suit.
Out of uniform.
*faint*
and now we all look like pregnant ladies with all those extremely used scrub suits which is a gown and not pant suit.
oh well...
anyway.
ask me bout progress?
i was at PACU ytd.
not a bad place and i like the staff in charge of me...
they're nice.
so is the Reception 4 staff...
Jenny and Shanti. =DDD
Real nice Senior ANs...
Anyway. Ask bout my life?
am trying to change a new blog skin.
and not much of a improvement.
never talk to him much.
i'm still thinking and at the same time trying not to think so much...
ytd he was busy playing cards and never really seem to want to talk to me by the pace of the conversation and afterward telling me that he's worried about his and my bill..
can't blame him, can i?
his bill is heavy and so is mine.
i dont really mind actually but oh well.
den he slept at 2am.
ask him in the morning why he slept so late, he told me he couldn't sleep cuz slept too much the previous day.
I feel the drift.
It hurts.
whenever he talk to me, he always seem so tired and always tell me he's tired.
maybe i make him tired.
haha.
oh god. what a pessimistic shit i am.
LOL. but here.
i can't seem to slap myself awake.
what is the truth, so i only try for the worse and see the worse.
and this song sung by Backstreet Boys called Crawling Back To You?
he let me listen to it once and asked me if tt particular ex were to sing it to me, would i be moved and go back to him. I told him no. really. i mean it.
but just now, i sent him the same msg asking him the same question.
i just can't help it but feel this way and ask him that question seeing to all the recent events that has got to do with his past memories that i felt that he never seem to got over.
i'm sorry that i feel that i'm oversensitive but if you were in my place, would you feel this way?
from the very first, seeing all those messages, then those pictures, then the lie, and lastly the ring?
and a shout and many that was never needed.
what hurts, still hurts.
i'm juts forcing myself to the opposite way.
Please enlighten me the path.
Please don't throw me into that darkness again.
I'm tired.
and i dont know what to do.
I'm bugged by your past that you can't get over.
I'm hurt, do you know?
Maybe it's my fault that i allowed it to exist and hit back at me.
Maybe it's my fault that I just saw it.
i think maybe.
i am selfish.
but love.
is.
selfish in a way.
that.
past shouldnt have even existed.
10:00 PM.
" Sunday, October 07, 2007
Meow!
Tomorrow's attachment.
The new beginning of a new semester and the last semester that I belong to Nanyang Polytechnic...
Holidays will end as of 23 59...
That's fast isn't it?
Thank you to all of my friends who came to tag and ask about it...
=)
Miss all of you... I really appreciate everything...
I'm feeling better already...
Friday had dinner with Abe darling and his family...
Had a great date out on Saturday...
But then again...
I saw things that I should not have seen.
The ring of promise of the past..
It hurt and pierced through my heart like an arrow..
The feeling was bad but I learned to control myself enough to keep quiet and let it be...
If he really is sincere in throwing it away, he would have.
Instead of putting it back into the box.
I can understand i guess.
I have to understand.
If he wanted to delete away the pictures, he could have done it there and then.
Then again, it's not me who have any right to tell him to delete it.
It's his past and his memories.
Maybe he still misses the happy memories.
So who am i to take it away from him.
Not me. Definitely not me.
I just have to be contented with what I have, don't I?
At the very least, he tried to make up for it by treating me to a nice dinner at Thai express, something I like and we caught Residents' Evil: Extinction.
Not a bad show. Really.
He got me 2 t shirts which i really like as well.
One of it saying "Most likely to misbehave"
That's what he says i'll do when he's away in Aussie.
Most likely to tire myself to death with attachment more like it.
But. I want to thank him for my lovely day.
I enjoyed myself. Really.
Tomorrow is my first day at Operating Theatre.
I'm meeting my fav Yiling at 7.30am at Novena MRT Station, so good reason to rest early.
I tempted Miss L to buy doughnuts just now like how he tempt me into Old Chang Kee... =)
Miss L is getting me printed T-shirt for my birthday.
Couple Tee in fact.
He seemed to have designed it himself.
Really sweet of him. =DDD
Then again, I don't wish for my birthday to come that fast.
19. one more year. older.
and another birthday of loneliness, sadness and whatever it may be.
People who know me probably knows i hate my birthday.
I'm trying to look at the bright side of life.
Close one eye and try to be happy.
God, please move all those unhappy thoughts away.
Please bless me for my attachment.
I'm not feeling really well...
Just kind of finish packing my bag for tomorrow.
Hate to see that disgusting ass of a face tomorrow and that bossy voice. Disgusts me to the max but well, jiayou to me and yiling plus the rest of the people whom i deem as friends.
I hope nothing more occurs soon and I really hope to see some improvements after the 1 month.
Maybe by then, he wouldn't forget to delete or throw anything of his past and maybe find a good place to have it stashed away so that he can admire it when I'm not around.
I will be glad not being able to see all the past because I think I don't need to be reminded of how much he loves her or her or her.
I wouldn't hurt him likewise.
Maybe he doesn't understands that forgetting is hurting and is very very hurting.
Anyway, just changed my blog song.
It's title is "It is You (I Have Loved)" in Shrek OST...
by Dana Glover.There is something that I see,
In the way you look at me,
There's a smile there's a truth in your eyes.
What an unexpected way,
On this unexpected day,
Could it be, this is where I belong.
It is you I have loved all along.
There's no more mystery,
It is finally clear to me,
You're the home my heart searched for so long.
It is you I have loved all along.
There are times I've ran to hide,
Afraid to show the other side,
Alone in the night without you.
But now I know just who you are,
And I know you hold my heart,
Finally, this is where I belong,
It is you I have loved all along!
No more mystery,
It is finally clear to me,
You're the home my heart searched for so long.
And It is you I have loved all along.
Oh, over and over, I'm filled with emotion,
Your love, it rushes through my veins.
And I am filled with the sweetest devotion,
As I look into your perfect face.
There's no more mystery,
It is finally clear to me,
You're the home my heart searched for so long.
It is you I have loved,
It is you I have loved,
It is you I have loved all along
I find it really meaningful.
But I'm not sure if he will see it.
I want to trust him.
Please, let all the tears go away.
i know.
i love him.
but it just hurts.
alot.
1:25 AM.
" Friday, October 05, 2007
calm and weird.
something is missing.
i think we both know it...
maybe what is missing is the quarrels that we have too often...
maybe what is missing is the cheerful and optimistic me...
maybe i lost myself in the process of everything...
after thinking...
i come to realise...
maybe i asked too much...
maybe the expectations that he had set, i should have asked more for myself rather than agree to go along with it...
then maybe... everything wouldn't turn out the way it is today...
i can't imagine how upset i am to know that i won't be having my birthday with him.
i am very.
maybe my mood and emotion have clouded my judgement badly...
one month of seperation seems to be alot yet seems to be little too...
this one month we can think through but we are both afraid...
at least i am...
i'm afraid that whatever i do is not enough... because it never was...
i'm afraid that after all this time, he still do not hold trust in me...
i'm afraid that whatever is happening is because of other people...
tell me why do i worry so much?
i suppose i cannot not worry or think so much...
because of all the recent events...
i feel that things has changed...
i know i will never ever shout at him over another guy, especially not my ex bf...
the insecurity left me hanging there...
i know that i will not leave photos of my ex bf and i lying around for i never would want him to be hurt...
the sadness and lack in thoughts left me hanging there...
then the last was lie that spoiled it all...
i'm really very afraid to trust...
i cannot afford to have my trust betrayed like snap.
i know that i should accept whatever his reasons and move on but if he was in my place, would he accept?
i would find everything to be excuses as well...
i think perhaps the problem lies with me.
not him.
it's me that cannot get past my ownself.
i don't know who or what to account for except for the love and miss that i have for him.
i still cry silently in this night while typing away in the dark...
my heart hurts...
and i don't know what to do...
i don't know who to turn to...
for like he says, he wants to take things easy...
i don't know how to talk to him as well...
he's always tired and i think mostly is my fault...
due to my house line, we even never talk on the phone anymore...
as of tonight anyway...
i know his bill is exp, but he never suggested for me to call as well...
maybe he's worried for my bill as well...
i cannot do anything but to give him the benefit of the doubt...
i think i am going crazy...
maybe i really need to see a shrink...
i need to slap myself away...
but i see the drift.
and it hurts.
plus he wants to take things easy at this point when he's leaving...
i don't have a choice, really...
do i? i can only wait.
but i will wait...
i can only hope and i can only wish...
that he can see my efforts and can feel how much i hold him dear...
went to grandma house today...
grandpa seemed to have lost weight again...
and tt tupid hospital's urology specialist totally sucks.
he has got big time attitude problem by speaking so rudely to my third and fourth aunt...
poor mummy seems so tired as well...
make me be maid for her... haha...
like maria, carry this carry that...
talking to my grandma and seeing her really makes me think lesser...
or rather, i won't ponder as much as i know my maternal grandparents are very much dear to me and i can't afford to lose them...
and when i see them, my grandma always speaks to me and even jokes with me...
watching the television together really took my mind off things and make me think that my problems are not that much after all...
although grandma and mummy keep asking me if i'm okay, i dare not speak much to them...
but just smile because i love them and because i would rather worry about it myself...
they have too much on their mind and don't need me adding further for them...
okay, i look like a puffy big goldfish.
my eyes feel swollen and painful.
i should probably try to turn off the tap...
i should read more books.
and get my mind off...
at least by running and turning away from my problems can help me...
though it is cowardy, i just want to be who i am by just doing nothing and rotting away.
i worry for attachment too...
OT... i am coming.
hope i'll get through fine.
my heart pines.
my heart cries.
i dont know where to start..
i dont know where to end..
i wan u so much.
yet.
it seems that we have drift apart...
what can be done.
what will be done.
i'm lost.
u wan me to lead.
but i cant.
i dunno where to go.
so i sit.
so i wait.
as i always do.
3:48 PM.
" Wednesday, October 03, 2007
i am in bed but nt in my dreams...
not my beauty sleep definitely..
i am blogging...
about?
i dunno...
a very strong heart wrenching feeling...
a very strong heartache...
and a huge urge to stop crying even though i can't...
i dunno what happened...
and i dunno what's wrong...
or maybe i dunno what's right...
i feel so lost...
i feel so hurt...
and maybe tired...
but still... lost.
i dunno what to do...
i dunno what i miss...
my mind and body feels like it's all split into half and more halves...
like cells keep multiplying? mine feels like degenerating...
i dunno what to do except blog...
perhaps the next thing to talking to my pixie is just blogging...
at least nobody turns and look at me and give me that face saying "hey, what the hell are you doing."
I am sorry that i never got talking to mizael...
but i am glad pacik spoke to me...
he must be having tonnes of fun now at Phuture & Zouk...
he says the expectations that he himself set for me and himself he can't meet them...
even when he's supposed to be have doing it all his life like he said...
now he wants to call it off when i'm used to it already...
because he's tired, stressed and feels that it is taking a toll on him...
what about me?
i don't have choice...
but to wait... i was never given a choice when the expectations were set and now removed, i still don't...
he says he just wants to take things easy now...
why the so much fiery start and take things serious now the easy way?
because he's suffocated...
i dunno how to say this...
but sometimes i just want to scream at the top of my lungs...
what about me?
what about how i feel?
what about how i think?
why is that i survived through everything that he asked of me and yet he can't?
i feel the drift...
a terrible one...
i feel the pain...
a horrible one...
but it's okay...
maybe the one month will do both of us good after all...
let everything cool off...
i hope i am not lying to myself...
at least not again.
i hate to lie to myself.
for most of the times as much as i hate to say it...
i will look into the mirror and see that face and tell myself in the mirror, there, i told you so.
den i know i will hate that person in the mirror all over again...
because i allowed myself to lie to myself...
the stupid old me...
i feel like i am mumbling...
i feel so weak...
i feel that i am at the mercy of my ownself...
i envy s & v for their sweetness and they are really loving...
i am happy for them...
now all i can do is just wish for something happy...
to stop the drama...
to stop the tears..
i want to say this to myself.
kat, i hate you.
and i sweat like a dog and cleaned up my messy big o room today so that he could come over next week to my house to have dinner with my family and his fav dishes...
but he doesn't want to come over...
my efforts...
where does it go...
maybe i just think and ask for too much...
okay.
i should shut myself up now and try to sleep.
good nyte bloggie.
bloggie, i think i am crazy but i love you.
heart breaks.
heart aches.
tears flow.
tears go.
lost in a world which i don't know.
bring me back.
4:16 PM.
" Tuesday, October 02, 2007
here are the sentosa photos...
obviously featuring me...
LOL... sorry if u disappointed...
cuz kel lost his camera...
screw those camera thieves who stole miss L and kel's camera... =(
in train on the way to siloso!
my messy hair... Fat me...
haha... they guys..
meowthie, cihao, kenneth, mizael and kel...
hehe... nice?
cool la... lol...
kenneth's poor sunglasses... my current camwhore partner...
this pic is nice... W/O meowthie... haha...
woah... look at OUR EYES...
at thai express...
while waiting for food, i stare into myself and say hello?!
den i send my poor N73ME for service so i borrowed phone from baby...
the camera nt bad... look at the effects? hehe..
there's 2 of me on each side...
at grandma hse... bored?
take a picture!
haha... or 2? i like this pic...
awwwww.... *SHY*
my dearest mummy and me...
she act like sleeping lo.... so ACT...
lol... she oso very camwhore de ok... haha...
met georg for mooncake fest celebration...
luv this picture..
i found this chicken lantern!!! lol...
there's the dumb dog tt sleeps on my bed every single day...
to continue with previous short post...
that is li hom's single...
i cannot really blog about all the things tt happened...
but now...
i am nt in the best of moods..
nt at all...
i wish i could be like some ppl...
so 潇洒 to let go, to give to take as and when they want to...
but i can't. i know.
and it hurts...
to know the truth.
what's the whole feeling of knowing you have been betrayed?
especially by one that you love the most and when he does something behind your back?
it is okay to nt slap yourself in the face but it is okay to slap mine?
u did those things before and yet u spoke like i was the only guilty partner that did all those stuff like it was as illegal as drugs...
when u spoke to me, did you nt feel guilty when u flare up and threw ur temper?
when those was of the past.
nw i accept your apology of that.
but there's smthing else altogether.
that i will never forget...
a lie...
and a shout...
caused by 2 of your past.
and of great importance to you.
where does that leave me to?
and where does it bring me to?
a lie.
which u had so much time to tell me..
months... so many things.
you swore u would nvr lie to me.
u said so urself to my face u never had.
but this lie.
happened after u said u wouldnt do it.
happened after 1 mth of our r/s.
u said it was sarcasm.
out of fury.
it doesnt appear so to me.
and hurt me even deeper.
to know i found it out myself.
to know that most that u tell me.
u dont really do what u preach.
we're same people, really.
i follow the rules that u set.
yet u never seem to realise the effort, nvr seem to uds tt u nvr follow.
i am lost.
i am tired.
i am hurt.
and i dunno wad to do...
i dunno what else to trust...
i dunno what else to believe...
the world to me now seems so gray and colorless...
u have ur duty to do.
i dun have a choice tt i have to spend my birthday alone.
i dun have a choice tt i have to go thru my own tough moments alone...
but u always had a choice to tell me the truth.
now.
the truth hurts.
especially when it eats thru my skin.
thru my own eyes.
10:14 PM.
" Saturday, September 29, 2007
Picture speaks a thousand words...=DDDYes, believe your eyes, that is Wang Li Hong... =DDD
2:54 AM.
" Friday, September 28, 2007
well... what are friends for? haha... do this for you k...
dont say dun hab hor... lol...
Favourites
Colours : White really... and pink...? Black perhaps? erm... wait... i can't really answer you... i have a soft spot for colours...
Food : Ah ma 最棒! LOL...
Song : Hmmm... What a tedious question... Now is 晴天娃娃 from Jay Chou's Secret OST... Sweet & cuute song, really...
Day of the week : Friday i suppose... End of the week... Chill... No school, no attachment, what a life... =D
Current
Mood : Moody, confused, was happy but yeah... Hell.. Not very lovable...
Taste : Sour and Spicy... =D *beams*
Clothes : light yellow t shirt with fbt shorts?
Thoughts : pixie thinks i'm going to sit in her bed forever... screw that...
First
Best frenz : Dog??? They're always around when i cry i think...
Crush : eh... childhood sweetie? LOL... *shy* haven't met him in years...
Movie : Sun Wukong's 月光宝盒... the first that i went with my family and the last my dad brought me to.
Lie : “Oh,I don't know” i suppose almost everyone does that? haha...
LAST SO FAR
Drink : Nachos in the cinema?
Car ride : Taxi ride with a nice malay uncle driver?
Movie : Rogue Assassin, abit draggy but nt bad... like the plot...
Call : "Whatever la... i didn't say so.." to my idiotic father that gave my mum me.
Dated ur best frenz guy : nope. girls thing you knoe? sister's bf, way hell no. plus, he must be a jerk to let my bestie dump him or the other way round i suppose? haha... (stereotyping in progress)
Broke the law: look at me... awwww.... ain't i sooo law abiding?
Been on tv : Erm... Channel News Asia for IMF training thing... quite cool la...
Kissed sum1 u dont know : Nt that i remember. Nope... Don't you find that.. Gross?
5 things you are wearing now..
Contact Lens...
Ring...
Pink Nail Polish...
Blood Red Nail Polish...
Clothes?
4 things you have done today
Take photo with Wang Li Hong on stage... seriously, how many get to do that? haha.. but yeah, thank you Kelvin and Miss Janette... =DDD
Watch Movie...
Belly rub pixie...
Eat in school...
3 things you can hear right now
Abeely's phone clicking away... his keypad.
Pixie's walking towards me...
and DUH... I'm typing...
2 things wanna do now
Scream at the top of my lungs...
Let pixie sleep... she's grumpy!
1 thing you will do when you are bored
Okay. I'm basically a very very very boring person. I read. Nora Roberts. hey, at least it's a good book plus a totally mag author... LOL...
Ppl tagged!!!
Tortoise, zi gui
Melissa, pals
Sheena if she reads this...
and... i cant think. my brain has already shut down!
gimme a break. the girl needs it...
3:15 PM.
" Tuesday, September 25, 2007
found some pictures...
so here you go...
my gang at bowling trip...
spastic people!!!
Hmmp!
kenneth like this picture... LOL...
=P
tt's my butt u are staring at!!!
haha...
pose!
posers! haha...
AHEM...
wad a lovely couple... did i say couple?
OOPS~
Botak Jones!
kelvin & me!
kel's cuute la.. okay... we're cute.
now the CUUTIES... LOL...
Meow meow meow!
Meow is back in town...
wanna guess why i haven't blog?
because i ain't got any pictures to show...
PLUS... the very fact tt my poor N73ME is stuck in Nokia Care now..
kelvin...
where are our lovely slutty bitchy gossipy sentosa photos?????
haha... LOL...
oh ya...
did i mention tt i went to sentosa on last friday with my pals family to sentosa?
love them to bits!
we were supposed to meet at 8.30am..
BUT...
as usual la har... haha...
we only reached vivo at 9.45? haha...
but poor kenneth was early... sorry!!!
jiayi & eileen were the last to reach sentosa...
we went to do stocking up of food from Giant, Vivo Mart and then went to Food Republic to fill our stomachs...
i had fried prawn hokkien noodles!!! =DDD
oh ya..
we went to lovely siloso and got there by the beach tram...
wanna guess how many times do i go to sentosa in a year?
if u count in my soon-to-be-19 years of life.. tt's like average once in every 3 years... haha...
cool huh?
not that i dont love beach. pun intended.
just tt i dun have company to go with...
plus... the CORRECT ones tt i'll love to hang around with...
and mainly...
it's always the time issue...
when i'm free,everybody isn't...
when they're free, i'm not...
so oh well...
accounts for it...
my life is BORING..
but there are always people willing to spice it up...
like i said...
we were at sentosa..
and ta dah!
this couple, who looks younger by our group by maybe 2 years or so..
which is age group 16-18...
they were happily setting their lovely mat down on the beach in the shelter next to ours...
and we were happily enjoying our chat in the water...
then...
the lovely couple decided to arouse ecah other by applying sunblock for each other in an almost exotic manner...
now now...
we had free show plus, the ticket only cost us S$3!!!
LOL...
then they happily dipped into the water as the group of us had our lunch and snacks...
the girl happily wrapped her legs around the guy's hips in the shallow water...
in front of us...
i bet many guys would have wanted to be there...
but seriously, for a person like me who do not really appreciate pornography, especially live ones in front of my eyes...
it was simply gross to me and a few of my gang...
heard of a drink called sex on the beach?
tt's our lovely couple for you...
they were so obviously screwing in the water...
they were so enjoying it...
and melf took a snap of them..
OOPS...
so did other people..
there were 2 photographers, i would say professional or experienced ones on the beach...
they happily sat down and chatted while they took some more pictures of them...
then miss L's friends came and he told his other friends..
and his friend's friends went to sit right in front of them and lie down to watch...
Oh god...
the couple...
*faint*
anyway...
we played alot of games & it was really fun but eileen's group didn't do their forfeit!!!
arggghhhh...
haha... they're so not going to get away with it next time!
LOL...
anyway..
we had thai express! =DDD
my current favourite and will stay that way...
till i get bored...
and i caught Underdog!!!
my fav quote and baby's quote...
"GIVE THE DOG your FOOD..."
"There's nothing to fear, Underdog is HERE!"
cuute right?
LOL... i love tt beagle...
nw baby's bugging me to give my dog to him...
dream on dar...
haha...
continue ur wonderful dream...
oh ya...
and congratulations to Kenneth Woo! =)
and Jian Bang too...
haha...
shall nt let the secret outta the bag...
hope to see elaine soon!!!
i miss tt biatch... haha...
everyone please get well...
poor dar dar...
1:04 PM.
" Thursday, September 20, 2007
Lots to post about!!!
Tonnes of pictures!!!
=DDD
First...
I have a need to shout!!!
I got 4 straight As out of 8 modules!!!
first As in my poly life!!!
and 1 B+ and 3 C+...
No Ds!!!
I can play poker and win with the 4As liaoz...
My aunt and my mum very proud of me....
So happy...
though i dont have any distinction like Ben does...
i am satisfied somehow...
but i will continue to strive for more...
hope my other friends did well too! =)
The guys' POP & POC day pictures when we had a meeting up on Tuesday...
we went to SPH canteen to get Botak Jones...
Kel, Miss L, Ci Hao, Ger & miie...
ooh... look!!! wanna guess how many fingers i own? haha...
den we went to Orchid Country Club to bowl...
i was almost the winner for round 2 hor... LOL...
but i suck at bowling...
miss L & miie at bowling alley!
we decided on mahjong & cihao drove us there...
camwhore alot on the way...
this EMO~ed pic nice ryte? hehe...
the lift mirror played a part in our camwhore routine!
ta-dah!!! the mahjong...
kenneth won the most can...
="(
haha...
anyway... last friday...
the same week... pixie went over to dar's house to stay over...
she had fun & we went to baby's neighbourhood to celebrate a very early mooncake fest..
baby GREEN with his lantern...
My pink lantern & the GREEN me...
pixie!!! =DDD she looks happy to be hugged by baby...
and she went chasing frogs, rats and whatever moving objects she was interested in...
there got ALOT of frogs...
my dancing mei mei...
Ooh.. He's bringing Sexyback!!!
Spark Spark Sparkles!
The next afternoon i went out with my pals family to celebrate miss L's birthday! =DDD
(what you looking at?)
i was sooo hungry tt when i ate doughnut, they said i had the orgas face... LOL...
hmmm... YUMMY!!!
cihao made reservations at 8pm at Timbre...
but we didn't stay in the end...
as there were plenty of leaves on the menu due to outdoor dining...
and it was raining for heaven's sake...
we asked for a inner seat table BUT...
none was available... the prices were quite up anyway...
so we left...
on the way to Raffles City... we took pictures!!!
the FIR... LOL...
Thaiexpress!!!! Yummy!
Pose Pose...
Ooh...
Gwen & i...
i ordered Red tom yum crayfish glass noodles...
damn damn nice...
looks yummy right? my food!!!
Recommended!!!
Look at my concentration on my food!!!
Now u see the pineapple rice...?
Now you DOn't! haha...
open pressie time!!!
i got david beckham's cologne for him... =)
smile!
and his BAG of pressies...
3 CDs on wishlist & the cologne...
what a kiddo bag cihao got him...
so primary school national day... LOL...
the girls in the toilet!!!
eileen cut her hair... pretty ryte!
ooh...
i smell 11B in the air...
Miie!!! and my lil house... LOL...
do u notice the lights are heart shaped?
haha... cool hor?
Loves!!!
from top left, cihao, meowthie, ger, gwen
from middle left, miss L & kenneth back to back w me at the side...
bottom, jiayi! =)
the train-EEs...
LOL...
and let's take a look at Georgina's early bird day celebration...
we met up and had dinner at 630 opposite our secondary school...
her blueberry cake w 19 burning melting candles...
Posing with her cake!
Make a wish... or 19 of them...
and god will choose which to fulfil?
the slacker idiot w georgina...
she the mastermind for the cake la... LOL...
but she nvr kena any cake... KNS... haha...
nana, bird day ger & me...
Ah-hah! now the picking out candles time...
Yewl... candle... Wax...
haha..
and oops...
while she was picking out the last candle...
she wouldnt allow us near her cept me who was holding camera...
and OOPS...
her head went into the cake... haha...
beautiful girl...
see the zhuai ger cut her cake...
haha... and who's hands are those?!?!?!!?
bird day ger & me...
ooh... toothy...
eh... if u realise...
at this point...
i caught angela's CREAMED hand on camera...
left of the photo...
LOL...
results of battle?!?!?
angela kena more...
later on i oso kena from georg...
so did my poor phone...
jolyn missed out the fun... LOL...
sashimi came later on too...
and she pooped everywhere...
haha... we chatted till 1am den went home...
on ya...
we took a cab home...
and the tupid cab uncle purposely drove at 40km/h and sometimes even lesser la...
den he collected $5 from georg instead of $4.55...
SMRT taxi...
next time i wun take SMRT taxi le siahz...
the uncle practically eating $$...
now at grandma house..
tml's sentosa!!!
and CAMWHORE day!!!
woot...
i am fat... =(
tml oso can see dar le...
=D
hope i dun burn like siyan does...
haha...
i wanna...
fly...
i wanna...
fly with...
i wanna...
fly with you...
Just YOU...
6:02 PM.
" Thursday, September 13, 2007
more photos to come!
that will be me down the bowling alley of orchid country club...
=DDD
toothy & tongue! camwhorers!!! hehe...
blur blur...
ooh... look at tt tan!!! haha...
kenneth took it while i ate my mashed potato!
driver in action?
haha no la...
kenneth and i tryin out miss L's camera... hehe...
kelvin & miss L...
where are our photos?
hehe... just half planned a sentosa trip with my gang...
love them to bits...
1. sunblock, suntan
2. mat
3. volleyball
4. care
5. F&B-> buy at vivo giant
6. camera->must have
7. think le den write... maybe frisbee?
8. maybe pixie yang... haha...
ytd benson acc me go back sch...
thanks bestie...
we had chicken rice & fruit juice!
but nvr tk pic... so sian... haha...
den he acc me go marriot hotel to get mooncakes for baby's parents...
baby & i had a big issue...
aiya... lazy to type...
anyway... today is NGOH SIYAN's 20th BIRTHDAY!
i wasn't the first to wish & tt idiot tot i forgot his birthday...
*faint*
why would i forget?
haha...
later sms him ba...
i wanna be the last to wish...
lol...
miss ya to bits too!!!
very long since last saw him & ah siang...
oh well...
yawn..
go find my mei mei...= my dog, pixie yang...
haha... tired...
i lookin for Nora Roberts' book, Dance Of The Gods...
hope i can find it later... =DDD
life...
is nt tt simple...
at least...
nt the way u think...
5:00 PM.
" Monday, September 10, 2007
here's ur eye candy!
sicchu, sha, miss evelyn, me, yiling, vanitha...
best group of the year! hehe...
haha... classic siahz...
wanted to take the 2 of them only.. but...
oh well... hehe...
my favourite attachment mates, classmates and friends!!!
Meow!
i'm home!
just now was at baby's house with his elder sister sitting in front of the tv munching & enjoying the variety shows... so sinful!!!
cuz i am getting fatter & FATTER!!!
="( baby!!! it's all your fault...
bleahs... hehe...
i borrowed show from dar dar mummy also...
woot... and got my Nora Roberts from Toa Payoh... hehe....
reason for not blogging these few days?
anyone wanna guess?????
39.5 high fever...
cool ryte?
i thought my head was gonna burst!!!
can fry a pretty egg!!!
and thank you my lovely bestie Benson George for my lovely porridge on a lovely afternoon...
=DDD *huggiez* you're the best la k?
tt nyte went to MOS on Wednesday...
and guess what..
on the way to toa payoh i felt a migraine... thought nothing of it but vomited at tpy and clarke quay upon reaching those 2 places... *faint*
then go MOS still nt feeling well...
go toilet, puke puke den go dance floor w georgina...
den seah li came...
dance dance in cage saw ming xue by chance...
den tapped his shoulder and spoke to him...
baby's bestie is really very nice...
he saw tt i wasn't feeling well and ask me to take care and even stuffed me money to take cab even when i told him i didn't need it...
haha...
baby, u've got good taste for a friend!!!
and my lovely daddy miss L!!! =)
he was the 1st to respond!!! i miss u...
so sorry never met up...
and kelvin my dear bitching buddy...
nvm... tml i will go their POC & POP...
mizael, kenneth, meowthie, jiayi, siyan and maybe see chee how and get my cash back from silong...
ahhh...
i wanna go sentosa, read a book...
and slack...
i am recovering but still threw up just now...
i miss my baby...
and i had a roast duck drumstick just now...
hehe.. yummt, sinful, oily.. oops!!!
pixie so guai... she miss me alot...
love love!!!
all i wanna do...
is find my way back into love...
5:33 AM.
" Wednesday, September 05, 2007
see my favourite baby cousin!
haha... enquan...
posing with my third aunt's teachers' day pressie! =DDD
over the weekend...
here are some pictures and happy moments of my life...
bought a new mango top... oops...
everybody sure go " NOT AGAIN?! "
haha...
and i got my lovely handmade present from baby...
i never imagine he would be so sweet...
the small things in the heart bottle are all rice written "i love you"
and tt's us... my sweet sweet love...
and i went to kuishin bo today with enquan & my third aunt! yummy!
the paper steamboat... hee...
yummy!!!
in love...
with you...
11:59 PM.
" Saturday, September 01, 2007
it's another Saturday...
Last sat went out w superpig san zhu and ye zhu...
very long nvr see them le...
now at baby's house...
was supposed to meet up w my pals family de...
miss them so much..
esp when kel is back in SG!!
and miss L back from field camp... hehe...
anyway...
i managed to finish my Nora Roberts trilogy on the blue dahlia, black rose & red lily...
a good novel indeed... bout how 3 single mothers come together.. get their chance of a new life and true love...
finding the ghost of the Harper House which Rosalind Harper lives in & how she falls in love w Mitch, the doctor in charge of finding the family tree to get the identity of this Harper Bride which has existed in the house for years and sings to children below puberty & appears when a lady in the house is pregnant... Harper Bride is against true love of somehow as she herself does not receive any... In Blue Dahlia, the book also talk about how a lady w 2 boys leaves the city and goes back to her Hometown to get a job introduced by her father to the Harper House after her husband passes away in an unfortunate plane crash... In red lily, it talks about how Hayley, a single mother of one baby girl, Lily, and Harper, son of Rosalind Harper, realises the love they have for each other and make it come true... As the romance follows, the mystery of the Harper Bride unravels and prove herself to be Rosalind's great grandmother and Harper's great great grandmother and how they put the angry ghost who tries to stop true love at ease...
Meow!
anyway...
monday going to newton w alouis for the actual thing!!! =D
thank you so much wow wow jie mei!!!
morning meeting baby's mummy to help her w some stuff...
my life is fulfilling.. =)
and i dont know why...
everything that i do seems to be wrong...
seems to be mistakes and flaws...
i dont knoe why...
is the love still the love?
is the care still the care?
i remembered hearing that he would do everything and anything to show me his love...
but why does it seem to fade...
the passion... is it still there?
i ponder in tears...
i wonder in fear...
will you accept one for who he or she is?
changes are always needed or rather adjustments to lead a happy life...
however, as adjustments are made...
why is it that it seems to be neverending and unhappiness still fills up?
every small lil thing...
it hurts...
to know...
to feel...
when it all comes down to feel minor...
so many things going on and yet how much longer can i endure in my life?
will you just come in and tell me that my life is perfectly fine and you solved everything for me...
tell me you just want to take care of me and be the one for me to be angry at... to make me smile... and wipe those tears off my eyes?
want so little yet it seems so much...
i live in fear...
in hope...
in tears...
that dont block me...
pierced right through my heart along w other angry stares and rough tone...
it hurts. bad.
my heart bleeds...
my fear screams...
my eyes weep...
for my broken soul...
will you...
fix it...?
just for me...?
6:51 PM.
" Friday, August 31, 2007
at grandma house right now...
baby's busy in camp...
yay!!!
going to have nice japanese buffet with my third aunt and my doted lil cousin en quan on wednesday!!! WOOT!!!
wahahahaha....
hungry...
brought grandpa to TTSH today for checkup tgt w mummy...
grandpa is suspected of hyponatremia...
doc needed his bld & urine samples...
poor grandad...
i saw him wince w pain when the needle went in...
guess i inherit fear of needle pain from them... haha..
i love them! =D
got enquan to pose w third aunt's teachers' day sunflower...
will upload soon...
cici!!! if u see this, gt someone say u cuute!!! hehe...
i miss auntie lainie...
nice talkin to ash too!!! help me in da job!!!
and alouis my wow wow jie mei!!! woot... lookin forward for tt interview soon!!!
i gave baby his pressies...
he loves it... =DDD
i can see u in my eyes...
it's a sign of love...
11:24 PM.
" Thursday, August 30, 2007
I only slept this morning at 4am...
and i woke up at 4.35am when idiot dad shouted for us to wake up...
only to see Mummy in a confused state...
my heart ached... but i had to hold back my tears...
had to calm down her after a while...
i cant uds why my idiot dad wants to agitate her by quarreling with her when he knows she was not well..
it's like who's the one who's hypo now?
sigh... anyway... managed to gave a sweet which my sister passed me...
my sister also very stupid...
she already know her blood sugar low...
a mentoes how to solve the problem?
i see mummy screaming like a child...
my heart pains me even more...
it was scary but i had to hold my cool...
keep trying to bring her blood sugar up to normal...
i was very scared inside... thinking what would i do if mummy just slipped away from me like that...
what would this stupid house become?
anyway... i fed mummy water mixed w sugar after persuading her like for ten minutes...
feeding her... w her lying on the bed... like child...
pains me...
at least... thank god she returned to normal at 5.30am...
but i just couldnt sleep anymore...
the fear and the thought of it...
i couldn't coax myself to sleep...
i didn't sleep till 7.30am...
sometimes..
i really feel very lost...
helpless...
and my idiot sister just went back to sleep before ensuring my mum's health...
i wonder...
really wonder...
how come she can be like that...
true u have work in the morning, so?
she's your frigging mum for god sake...
i really dont know what to say of my family...
sigh... and tt idiot dad woke me up at 11am to get his stuff done..
HELLO? it's your stuff, not MINE...
you dont even pay for the family...
at least not for me since 14...
u stopped working...
u borrow money from me...
they always say...
it's the debt from your previous life...
maybe i really did owe him something my previous life...
the only person tt i care most is mummy...
i really worry about her...
bringing grandpa to TTSH tml for appointment...
grandpa is another tt i worry alot as well...
i just want my family to be well...
there's a wives' tale saying that the seventh month of the lunar calendar is very crucial for the aged people...
if they pass the seventh month successfully, it means that they are safe for the meanwhile and that the gods would not bring their souls away from Earth...
i rather believe than not to...
i pray for their health... grandma too...
very worried that she'll fall sick taking care of grandpa too...
becuz she keep worrying... ="(
very scared...
fear engulfs me...
sigh...
i dont wanna talk about it anymore...
saw abang hisham, sir mazlin and rhani by chance...
then sham say wanna take photo w me again...
haha... oh ya...
great news...
sir mazlin decided to quit smoking...
glad for him...
=D
for 2 weeks nvr touch cig le...
see what i mean by quitting?
sigh... i also dont wanna say le...
went k with sheena... 2 of us had k student at AMK...
sing till wan die... LOL...
me!
our room...
the guys there very funny de...
especially got one keep helping us refill tidbits...
without us asking... nice ryte? haha...
see her eyes?
LOL...
=DDD
from her camera... this siao char bor go change new phone...
kinda like downgrade from 3.2 megapixels to 2 megapixels camera..
*faint*
the quality nt really good...
she like then good la...
the phone looks nice though... =)
and guess what?!?!
SOMEONE's Gucci wallet's button's color faded from silver to bronze...
see what i mean?
branded goods doesn't mean quality... LOL...
lesson learnt! hehe...
go change one before your warranty runs out la xiao jie!
just to feature my stupid girl...
oops!
see tt scrunched up face against my sister... haha..
my cuute girl...
cuute & fat...
my fatso baby now in field camp...
am at home...
pacik gt work tml...
dabian busy w gf...
ben in camp i think...
the other girls either work/ w gf or in malaysia...
=(
bored!
and guess what...
didnt know zen gt visit my blog de... haha...
hihi! LOL...
and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHAUN TANG WEI LIANG!!!!
ahem... 23 years old liaoz...
ahem... hehe...
hello UNCLE... older by another yr!
thanks for the call yeah? =)
appreciate it idiot!
at home...
watching my lappy...
looking at the tv...
pixie busy acc mummy...
life...
full of mystery...
me...
tired & history...
7:20 PM.
" Thursday, August 23, 2007
When was the last time i updated?
Hmmm... 7th of August!!!
That is so horrifying...
I kinda forbade myself to blog other than my unstable connection over the 1st week of MIA...
can you believe it?
i am back!
let me do some brief blogging first before i start on the reason why... =D
anyway... below is my dearie xixi so cuute!!!
well... look at the lightstick formed hoop?
she kinda like begged me to wear it for her... so happy to wear it somemore... *faint*
my cuutey sweetie dumb girl!!! haha... fat dog... 猪狗！
cant blame her... my fam play a BIG HUGE part for makin her tt way...
haha... anyway... last day of school was 10th August 2007...
can u believe it?
time flies...
i am in year 3 and it was already my last day in school...
officially or unofficially...
had some photos... w ppl tt i like...
from left...
yiling, me, Miss Cynthia who got our group name wrongly as NR0521 in her email (*faint* she's so cuute tt u cant blame her... i grow to like her alot...), sha, vanitha, puvan, qian qian...
and the notorious group 12 that all lecturers used to shake their heads when they hear us...
be it positive shake or negative...
seriously... i remembered...
when i used to set up class blog and friendster and all...
i loved my class then...
i would say truthfully that it is very obvious who dislikes who still...
after that last class meeting which attendance wasn't even full...
i am like... last yr... i oso dun wanna say much...
we all know the truth for we all are humans...
humans dont forgive and forget...
most of the time anyway...
i gotta admit i am not one who forgets easily either...
especially when it is a huge thing to cross... oh well... =)
whatever it is... i sincerely wish all of them the best in their future...
hope live with great happiness...
the whole class photo again...
ahem ahem... haha...
the four guys w the four ladies!
2nd row: rehan, ahmad, eugene, benjamin
1st row: sha, vanitha, puvaneswari, katherine
in the train!
left: sha, me, zhang shan and haiyan
yiling... where u looking arh?
=DDDDDD
AHEM! *COUGH COUGH*
AHEM AHEM... *COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH*
"nearer abit la!!!", that was wad i said when i took the photo...
WHAHAHAHAH!!! evil me... well... for the good of my close friends mahz...
=DDDD
i'm glad i asked the right question...
NEXT!
god knows which day i caught Rush Hour 3!!!
Jackie Chan lehs... of course i cant miss right...
both father and son are just as appealing to me...
in terms of man-ness and charm i would say...
(baby, dont be jealous!!! haha...)
This is one of the scene which he sings Kungfu Fighting... =D
and he's funny... i like it! haha...
Look at poor jackie...
of cuz the story was kinda okay only..
abit expected but the action and comedy is what i love the most...
and when u have the great actors on scene, it is simply irresistable...
a story on a triad name list tattooed onto a girl's head...
and everyone fighting to get the list...
korean ambassador and daughter get assassinated and happens to be jackie protecting the korean ambassador... =D
and the story goes on... haha... go watch it urself la k?
good show i wouldnt miss...
cept tt baby dont trust my taste...
the rest of my friends should okay... cuz baby dun appreciate my kinda art... LOL!!!
Anyway...
I recall that on one of the days...
Baby and i were out with his Best Friend named Clarence aka Ming Xue...
quite a nice guy indeed... =)
thanks for everything if u chanced upon this! =D
baby's ice cream!!!
ming xue blurred and his ice cream cake...
(look at the cig beside the plate... *shakes head* men....)
my peach!!!!!!!!!!!!! w slight percentage of liquor in it!
Then 3 of us went to catch Secret together! at cine...
Jay Chow and the female lead... so sweet yeah?
ahh... the talented one showing his talents...
he's really good at what he does...
the story is about time travelling romance with a difference of 20 years if i am not wrong...
with the help of a piano... damn sweet... =)
our promise to each other... =)
and the following day baby accompanied me to join my PALs family! Weeeeee!!!
i bought baby a gift before that... hehe...
smile!!!
miss L botak!!! hehe... his very 1st botak picture by ME!!!
Jiayi the 2nd botak... hehe...
meowthie the botak!
sorry kenneth, u had ur botak done up on my post previously liaoz... haha...
ahem... ahem.. AHEM... hehe... thou shall not say more...
Meow! hehe...
Miie!
and in marina square's cafe cartel...
they have a weird way of serving food...
they forgot sooo many things...
mixed up sooooo many things...
our orders damn *faint*
they forgot several of our orders...
key wrongly like dunno 4 times for our desserts...
no bread served...
and the drinks... OMG...
they only serve lemon skin for the drinks... -_-
i asked the manager.. manager told us that it is normal... we were like -_-!!!
how normal can it be...
prove of lemon skin instead of proper lemon in our lemon tea and peach tea...
ooh... and kenneth's lime me up...
w lemon SKIN again...
we were joking and talkin bout callin it skin me up...
and we proceeded to esplanade for camwhore time!!!
the 5 guys in our family going NS...
all cept alwyn haven BMT... jiayou!
OMG... his nostrils...
eh... this face... arrogant la!!! haha...
no la... he act only...
emo emo... oops... i forgot to rotate the pic...
meowthie and his shuai pose...
botaks in action!!! (BIA)
No hair gang... hehe..
at esplanade, we celebrate with the DURIANS... hehe...
The Hair Gang...
2nd Row: baby, alwyn, ci hao
1st row: me, ah ger, eileen
ooh... the guys...
w papasan in the middle!
from left: melvin, cihao, kenneth, baby, melvin, alwyn, jiayi
if u noticed...
i arrange them from short to tall... OoooPPsss...
candid!
the pretty ladies!
where' gwen, sally, raudhah!!!
and the girls all happened to wear black flats and heels together...
wanna make a guess who's leg is whose?
this is in NS mood..
ORD lo!!! (ya... 2 more yrs... wait k? very fast de... hehe...)
alwyn always cuute w his pose!!!
woah... then we got someone to tk picture from us...
the person like dunno what is stand nearer... no cam "FEEL"...
this is wad the person meant by NEARER... like each of us grew by few mm each...
miss L caught!!!
melvin: what la... eh? camera...
sorry for bad quality photo.. u all la... nvr brg camera... hehe...
anyway...
i caught 881 recently too...
mizael told me nice... den i watched it w baby's family...
it's really nt a bad show as i love songs and all...
baby didnt really appreciate it like i said... hehe...
and below are 2 songs recommended! NICE!
Elliott Yamin - Wait for you lyrics[Verse 1]
I never felt nothing in the world
like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you
would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around
it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
[Verse 2]
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is
& it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me,
your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
[Bridge]
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
[Bridge]
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do
[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting.Sean Kingston - Beautiful Girl
JR! Sean Kingston!
Chorus:
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over
Verse 1:
See it started at the park
Used to chill at the dark
Oh when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart
Cause we both thought
That love lasts forever (lasts forever)
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)
Refrain:
See it's very define, girl
One of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You walk to get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy
(Repeat Chorus)
Verse 2:
It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)
(Repeat Refrain and Chorus)
Verse 3:
Now we're fussin'
And now we're fightin'
Please tell me why
I'm feelin' slightin'
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' with my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suicidal...
--------------end----------------
there... here u go...
and about my life...
why i didnt blog?
exam factor...
4 papers... 9 books...
had to mug like crazy...
=D
am hoping for the best...
now is just Nora Roberts & me...
u ask me...
if those words were true...
i'll tell you...
as true as you...
1:11 AM.
" Tuesday, August 07, 2007
What a fruitful weekend i had! =D
first... let's start with our favourite friday...
Went up to Miss Bella to collect our management ICA results...
and take a look!!!
That's our brilliant long awaited A!!!! hehe...
great team with hard work okay...
and if tt picture is too blurry...
it says... A! An excellent effort! hehe...
and Miss Belle complimented our meeting minutes done up by sha & i!!!
Excellent! One of the best minutes of meeting I've seen.
What a cool remark right?
And we told yiling and puvan that we got D and C respectively...
their reaction was soooo cuute!!!
that's vani and i sooooo happy with our results and celebrating our good day...
esp a Friday!!!!
i went home to prep and met baby for dinner before going for movie at Jurong Point...
we had Long John Silver after collecting our tickets...
Caught Flash Point!!! another long awaited movie!!!
below are the details...
am sooo lazy to type but it is a good action movie though...
Courtesy of Yahoo Singapore... hehe...
Detective Sergeant of Serious Crimes Unit, Jun (Donnie Yen) detests crime and his lifelong nemeses are a Vietnamese gang of three brothers - Archer, Tony and Tiger. In order to further infiltrate the gang and fight them from within, Jun has planted a mole, Wilson (Louis Koo), who has managed to gain the complete trust of the gang. However, Wilson's dual role is exposed and resulting battles leave him handicapped for life. The day before Tiger's trial, Archer turns up at the hospital to wipe out their only witness, Wilson. Jun manages to kill Archer and protect Wilson but Wilson's girlfriend (Fan Bing Bing) is held hostage by the gang.
after the movie!!!! *camera flashes*
hehe... waiting to go for supper with baby's bunkmates...
went to Geylang to eat frog leggie porridge...
with yuan feng, the shy big sized guy and melvin the pool pro...
LOL... went to clementi to meet them den we had funnt chats along the way...
Yuan Feng was on the gender issue like totally... so cuute... baby...
dont be jealous k? *muackz*
den on Saturday, we went to Malaysia to visit baby's grandpa...
had Marrybrown before meeting baby's dad...
he's really a nice grandpa... and baby's a good grandson...
filial i should call it...
when i saw baby's grandpa, i thought of mine and kinda almost cried again infront of everyone...
but i held back my tears...
good thing is i got to see how the hospital in malaysia worked...
i got to meet baby's daddy and his half sister too...
Qiao Xuan's really a sweet and shy girl with lotsa lame jokes to share...
baby's younger cousins are really cuute too...
and after which we had dinner with baby's grandma...
the roast duck was GREAT!!!
damn nice ok... i think of it still will salivate... haha...
baby's dad dropped us off at City Square and we went shopping for our stuff...
i got pressie for my newborn baby cousin for his 1 month old birthday...
i got the pressie there hoping that i wouldnt get anything similar to anyone else...
if not, it would be weird. like totally... haha...
and baby got his gatsby moving rubber... LOL...
Pink and grey... and we shopped for clothes for ME!!!
Guess what?!?!!?!?
Baby got me 2 mango tops...
and i love it...
a black laced spaghetti strap and a red t shirt w great prints that we both like..!!!
Thank you baby!!!
*muackz*
i never fail to miss that guy okay...
he's like everywhere..
which includes my phone so that i can stare at him all day...LOL...
i am obsessed with baby!!! haha...
Came back to SG then baby's parents came to pick us up and we had dessert at Boon Lay market...
well... something bad happened on that trip and we decided to visit Bugis's temple on Sunday with baby's parents...
On our way there!!! *flash flash* pictures!!!
hey.... why are you pressing your face against mine?!?! haha...
hmmm... decided to get all artsy for a moment....
and whose legs are those?!?!!? haha...
watched the match on Chelsea VS Manchester United with baby at 10pm...
Man U won by penalty kick... and like chen said, it was a draw...
he damn zun can... haha...
we finished up the break up before sleeping...
it was a stupid show...
today had lessons and i didn't bring any books... Oops...
met baby for movie and brunch at 3.15pm!!!
baby=LATE... LOL... ok la... i also... hehe...
and we went to Cwp...
had pastamania...!
den walked to get our mini melts...
i had rainbow and baby mocca w rainbow...
toot face of his... hehe.... (PS... he is so gonna kill me when he sees this...)
haha... Oops... baby says he looks gay w my bag...
he does, does he? hehe... our ice cream!!!!
pose pose!!!
baby give the Huh?!?! expression while i try to pout like i have small mouth... LOL...
my fav pic of the day!!! pose pose w my ice cream!!!
saw Sir Mazlin, his family and huijuan...
woot... mazlin... u work too hard liaoz la... LOL... hehe...
den we had our movie!!!
Knocked Up!!! nice movie...
good laughter show...
Allison Scott and Ben Stone waiting to see the gynaecologist...
and this is during one of the checkups...
and below is courtesy of Yahoo... AGAIN... hehe... sorry guys...
i'm lazy!!!
Allison Scott is an up-and-coming entertainment journalist whose 24-year-old life is on the fast track. But it gets seriously derailed when a drunken one-nighter with slacker Ben Stone resulted in an unwanted pregnancy. Ben then decides to do the honourable thing by tying the knot with her, and the two must learn to become parents.
about there...
we had cavana wings...
baby's growing fat... sha agrees as well... Oops...
and pacik!!! i havent seen you in years...
or what seems like years....
and lainie too... ="(
exams on 16...
i should probably get a life...
need to call baby now!
lessons at 4pm tml!!! Woot!!!
it's 1:11am... -_-
oops... baby gonna scold me liaoz... haha...
live just seem...
so complete...
with you...
and...
it'll stay that way...
Loves...
10:53 PM.
" Thursday, August 02, 2007
Yesterday didn't blog cuz was too tired...
i needed the rest... Sorry my dear blog... =)
But yeah... here i am...
Had presentation yesterday... The very last one, in fact...
the 5 of us visited the toilet i took photos... LOL...
Meow!!! hehe... Loves!
the 5 of us... pretty!!! i love this pic...
the photographer lady did i real good job...
i rmembered her from rugby if i nvr remember wrongly... Loves!
and we did fare quite good... Thank you Miss Ng!!!!
she's really nice... and i went home to concuss before going out to meet baby for dinner...
had kfc with baby and his bunk mates...
real nice people...
i rmember a few of them...
the round face guy who always look very friendly and nice... tt time steamboat he kept talkin to baby... name is alex... =)
melvin... he look like the singer... for a moment... i forgot the singer's name... haha....
and yuan feng... he sat right in front of me when we were eating... he looked like a shy big size guy... =D
and dragon boat polo tee guy, sorry i forgot your name!!!
but he's nice and funny too...
derrick, a very sociable person... talk to me bout my dar's bad habits!!! hehe...
and i am tt little shrimp to them... hei bee!!! *FAINT*
lol... whatever...
i had a great time yesterday...
love you baby! *muackz*
miie waiting for train home after that... hehe...
and today was a short day in school...
went to grandma house to visit ah ma and gong gong...
he become more skinny again... ="(
i talk about him to mummy, third aunt and small aunt...
sigh... depressed... i really hope for gong gong to get well soon...
and dar's gong gong too...
if there's anything i want more than anything right now... would be their health...
mummy's health and ah ma's health too... ="(
and baby cousin's 1st month on next saturday...
need to get him a pressie... dont know his name yet but he should be really cute and charming like my uncle... =)
poor dar very busy in camp...
need to clean up stuff...
dont ill treat my zhu zhu!!!!
so zzzzzzzz lor the guy huh!!!
meeting my girls... angela at least...
need to meet them!!!
got 1 month nvr see them le...
Loves!
xixi is sleepin... pig dog i have..
gong gong...
please be well...
i love you...
7:54 AM.
" Tuesday, July 31, 2007
was nervous but i guess i did okay... =)
but my group was great... all comes with great teamwork and good bonding...
love you guys to bits...
a little photo during my rehearsal!
thank you baby for all the support...
and you fail your SOC!!! =X you pig....!!!! haha...
met up with my juniors for lunch...
mr hey gorgeous keep saying i owe him drink and tada! you owe me lunch!
thanks for the nutritious lunch uncle shaun! LOL...
had meeting in school after lunch all the way till 7.30pm then i headed back with Yiling and her friend who is our lecture group mate as well...
Now, am finishing up the AES and tying up some loose ends for tml's last presentation...
Wish me luck!
anyway...
just had my med... i still feel sick...
nauseous, headache and damn warm inside out...
like totally...
and i chanced upon the most disgusting person i have ever seen in my whole lifetime...
shall not say much about it but it sure is gross...
fancy like to change stories so much and say what have this have that for the good of this and that but they are the one making up stories...
i pity that person, seriously...
when you never confront yourself back in the face, you won't realise what you do...
you know what, it made me realise big time...
that the world is like that, some people when you think that they are the closest to you tend to be the person that betrays you to the world...
you just have to see through it...
and move on... but whenever you think that you finally decide that you cannot be bothered anymore, people try to bring up things that hurt you so much and start to change stories and flip it here and there like roti prata just to hurt you and appear innocent...
i mean... just forget it... life is like that, so we just have to accept it, won't we?
or rather, me alone i guess have to accept it...
it isn't even about maturity of a person or not...
it's about the way people choose to behave... nothing you do can stop this thinking until one day the person looks back on it's past behaviour...
so i'm just gonna blast it out here and feel disgusted and gross for the last time because i've really seen through it...
and maybe i was just naive enough to have ever trusted you...
and i don't even know why i cried over you before... it all seems so foolish now...
just call me stupid... or whatever you want...
if making up stories makes you happy, go on and happily continue like that then...
so get lost now, run along, go away... shoo...
baby watched 300 just now in camp... say dont want to watch still go watch... *faint*
LOL... piggy darling... *muackz*
now already 10:42pm le, say want sms me after he watch finish his show also haven't...
must be watching tv still...
dar dar, where are you?
and yesh, today sha and yiling was saying that my zhu tou very nice to come to school to help me take my stuff...
*ahem* *cough cough*
got ppl praise him lehs... once in a life time hor...? haha...
fishing for praises? if you are reading this, nah... you are not getting any!!!
LOL... and i broke your score on my game...
how can i let you beat me at my own game right?
Jerry's my best friend can...
oh ya... talking about best friend...
i saw benson tt idiot's buddy, jimmy's gf, shannon in school...
she say she almost couldn't recognise me...
and she thought i was mixed blood?
weird lehs... i look like one mehs?
gt ppl say i look abit ang moh, then say i look abit thai, then say i look abit taiwan and also china!!!
*faint*
but the taiwan and ang moh is what i always kena...
why arh?
i look like mehs?
i am pure singaporean ok...
with local blood flowing through... haha...
proud to be one too!
i am a patriotic girl shouting!!!
I LOVE SINGAPORE!!!
call me crazy... that's my first name i suppose...
so maybe you can start calling me siao mao!!! LOL...
siao as in crazy, nt small hor leonard!!!
=P =X
and shaun is telling me about their db stuff and all...
i really envy the friendship and bond...
thus, making me miss my pals family more...
miss bitching with them, crapping with them and all...
Mizael Poh!!! sobx... i miss talking to you la...
you better come back and read my post!!!
i almost everyday say i miss you okay!!!
cuz everytime online sure gt chat with you and bitch about almost everything...
so sad can... ="(
please come back and hear me bitch soon... LOL...
baby dont jealous arh... *cock your head*
life...
ups & downs...
i am determined...
not to be taken in by the downs...
i will conquer...
i will win...
many battles...
like you've never seen...
i'll be strong...
and you shall see it...
try me...
11:11 PM.
" Monday, July 30, 2007
he even travelled to school for me to collect my project stuff for me since i am down with that stupid fever...
i feel loved...
really... the words melted my heart...
thank you darling...
my fever has gone down already and i need to be strong and head to school tml properly...
early in the morning...
i got 2 days mc from today and tml actually but nope...
i am still going to school...
like i have a choice..
thank you baby for being there for me..
now i miss your warm arms around me...
misses!
gotta look through my minutes of meeting for my community health project le...
tonnes of work cannot wait for me to do...
can't wait for my stuff to magicially finish on their own so i just have to slap myself awake and continue with it...
pixie is still happily running around in pampers...
any bachelor young good looking jack russel looking for a partner? haha...
my girl needs a boyfriend.. i think...
LOL...
it's all about you..
it's all about me..
it's all about you, me and our family...
i dream..
we soar...
hands in hands and score...
love is in the air baby...
for you and for me...
9:59 PM.
" Sunday, July 29, 2007
here to upload some photos...
before i die of my fever on bed...
miie before tying up my hair for assessment...
done!
neat and tidy!
edited!!! loves loves...
hehe... adidas and mango!!!
me...
smile!!! i passed my attachment!!!
thank you Miss Cynthia!!!
guess who's legs?
rehan...
florence... the innocent.
sheena drag me go... hehe... oops.
at work.. bored in toilet... waiting...
i love this picture...
baby took it for me...
he agrees to it too right?
haha...
and i am sick...
39.5...
please go away...
3:51 AM.
"
well.. had a great day at work with Cici... =)
we hit target together...
and yeah... i miss the days with lainie...
when we eat sambal sotong tgt...
and the kang kong!!! i miss lainie!!!
starting to get sick already...
keep having fainting spells...
haven't had those spells since primary 6...
i remember catherine used to always come to my rescue during recess time...
that sweet fwen o mine... Loves! =D
looks like my anemic problem is still not solved yet...
hope will go away soon... just imagine...
i recite my presentation half way...
and i faint... LOL...
big drama... i cant afford for that to happen...
so i need to look out on my health...
baby!!! you are supposed to take care of your nurse!!!
haha... was blog hopping just now and crossed joanne's site...
she's doing pretty well... happy for you!
if u see this, ur navigation i think gt abit prob lehs... always cant click de...
hehe... or maybe is me... i dunno...
anyway... just now baby accompany me home and we took xixi out for a walk to her favourite park...
she seemed so happy..
i just love pixie...
and the feeling is just so sweet and great...
cuz this is the first time we walk so late into the night and stroll...
with xixi along with us...
the air cooling brushing against our cheeks...
and the moonlight feels just so right...
we sat down at the bball court and started chatting about our secondary schools' encounters...
mine all ghostly, funny and interesting i think...
baby's stories are definitely eerie... haha...
*muackz* thank you so much dar dar...
i somehow completed my project le also...
cuz sent out and ask for suggestions for the rest...
and i love the concrete and useful feedback...
that is groupwork i say... =D
love u peepz!!!
ok la... i wanna sleep le.. so tired...
oh ya... tt pig is tryin to break my score in my tom and jerry game...
haha... dont even try! =P =X
with you,
i feel safe...
with you,
i feel love...
with you,
i have everything...
with you,
we share a future...
of love, hope and an everlasting light...
shining down on us always...
11:52 PM.
" Friday, July 27, 2007
Mizael and Jiayi is both in scorpio and same bunk somemore...
one bed 4 one bed 11... =)
i miss them...
esp mizael... i could confide almost everything in him...
my good advisor... he's gone... for the time being...
i miss seeing him online... ="(
baby's going for SHE concert later to help his friend...
i'm in shop... feeling very emo...
uncle matt is talking to me...
he's busy w sch work... so damn long nvr talk to him...
he's a good person to talk to also...
smart and nice...
marcus, thanks for the heartfelt concern...
i really feel it... and i really appreciate it alot...
i forgot to charge my handphone...
now only left 3 bar...
i miss my xixi in pampers...
huggable sweetie...
and today lainie send me a msg tt i cried over...
it's really sweet... and i miss her... badly too...
i knoe she can make me laugh...
and i knoe she uds... i miss her...
pacik very long nvr talk to him properly also... =(
there's so much going through my mind right now...
too much to handle actually...
i am on the verge of another breakdown of stress and worries...
and how many uds that...
tears keep coming to my eyes on and off...
my mind fully packed of things to do and worry...
and one of it is something big...
that i have to overcome... it's scary...
but i know i must struggle past it and not ever look back to it again...
my heart feels like it's bleeding from all the stress...
it weighs so heavily...
and my projects will only end on wednesday...
tuesday i have management ica with my dearies...
wednesday community health project...
exams in 2 weeks' time...
i really need to get started...
but my body... will it allow me to?
it's failing me already...
i'm scared... for the first time in my life...really have never broke down that many times in a week before...
worried for gong gong also...
i cannot stop the tears from flowing...
and yet i must be strong...
for me. for mummy. for the good of our future...
jiayou kaiting...
brave through the dangers...
my heart bleeds...
for itself...
my mind full...
of worries...
my body tired...
of sickness...
but why is all these crumbling my world...
at the same time...
i so hate the ugly world...
the ugliness of humans...
of the earth...
yet i must choose to fight...
choose to see it through than hide...
i am just a small girl...
of 18 years old...
trying to be a normal girl...
god,lend me your power...
to heal...
to study...
to be brave...
i need the courage.
6:52 PM.
"
Bet you are just one of them anyway...
Go get a frigging life yourself...
Wanna go get laid so much arh?
Oops... Sorry that your secret is out...
Continue writing lo...
I cannot be bothered...
Childish freaks...
Spammers...
Hypocrites...
Get a life la...
you making me tickle man... Good joke... =)
oh ya... you wan spam somemore i just delete somemore lo...
i am not scared...
i am telling you if you are saying this it can only mean you are either the one in our group or you simply did not attend the supposed class meeting and is just trying to get your bitching heard...
say till so happy...
as if i was the one to tell Miss Bella to change our presentation date...
I left the dates for eugene to decide...
and ya... shut up if you dont know anything, sweetie...
=D
not everybody like you so free keep spamming here... =)
oh ya... you can just go to the top right hand corner of the page and just click onto the cross and close this page...
i dont need your advice or suggestions...
so run along now...
go cry to your mama or papa...
say kat bully you lo might as well...
like haha... good joke still... pitiful ppl trying to make themselves heard from my blog... so free arh?
pathetic...
or rather acting pitiful then?
haha...
see you tired or not lo...
i sick of wasting my time and resources on "ppl" who ain't even human then i guess...
because if is real humans, should have understood from the meeting...
*smile*
*grins*
hope you enjoyed reading!
oh ya... happy getting laid...!
bo liao ppl in living in their own world...
act.
12:50 PM.
"
well... cannot be bothered.. =)
dont even waste my saliva talking about it...
it's not worth to have stomach flu and get so upset that things that i know or guessed what would happen...
crucify for all i care is what i said...
next time...
when u point at others...
think about it...
4 other fingers are pointing back at yourself...
same for me... =)
i only speak the truth and my mind...
oh ya... i wanna say something...
my personal blog is my blog...
so it's my mouth also... ^_^
it's my way for expressing how i feel...
there's no wrong or right in the society...
only acceptance or none...
scold all you want...
shout and scream on top of your lungs...
go on... gossip... bitch about me for all i care...
we all know what is on the surface and what is beneath it...
so whatever is meant to be said, god bless that they really meant it well...
oh ya... i still have to say this...
if you dislike me in the tiniest bit, aint my friend...
don't even bother typing my web address into your internet explorer or mozilla...
because you will not like what you see anyway...
so why bother? =D
i miss my pig baby... he's a PIG....
5am sleep...
now still haven't wake up...
to think that he is supposed to meet me...
-_-
he confirm won't wake up in time de...
zhu zhu...
1:03 AM.
"
I dont want to say much...
I'm glad that I have you baby...
I'm glad that I have sha, puvan, vani, yiling and the rest of the china girls...
I'm glad that i have my biatches sheena, georgina, jolyn and angela...
I'm glad that I have gor, law, chen and thomas who havent been appearing for years...
I'm glad that I have mizael, kelvin, kenneth, leonard, alwyn, albin, geraldine, raudhah, melvin, ci hao, sally, gwendoline, my pals family... you know who you are... Procastinators Always Late...
I love you guys...
That is a fact...
Today i discovered a lot of things and I realised that I have to take in a lot of things...
With baby, I know i will brave it through... for you and with you...
With sha, pu, vani... we cried together and hugged...
we all needed that... and i told sha and pu i love them...
i really do... because they are my true friends too...
how many true friends do you get in your life?
in primary school, 2 person i can name is catherine hu you qin and cecilia low jun rui...
both of them are still in nyp...
and in my secondary school days...
i got the 4 biatches in my life...
sheena... angela... georgina... jolyn...
all dog lovers all problems many many... haha...
then to my work life.. i met xiao ming...
my gor gor... treats me like his own blood sister...
and ah law ah chen who are always there to teach me, give me advice...
thomas tt pig although missing but yeah... i remembered the times when we all spoke over the phone...
then to poly...
i found my pals family..
my dearest procastinators...
all of them...
be it leaders, followers, carers, youngest, oldest....
lao shao wo dou ai okay!
mai siao siao hor...
i could really feel the bond...
the kind of bond that when they are overseas or out, you would think of them...
sincerely wish them well and miss them alot...
especially now that everyone is busy...
and mizael and jiayi is going in tekong tml...
jiayi gt his ger to miss him la... so dun nid our miss... hehe...
and mizael... i will really miss you...
you have been a wonderful listener, leader and friend to me... =)
(dun be too touched ok... wan cry, we cry together... i lend u my tissue...)
and thru attachment and other matters...
i found my other group of true friends...
i got close to yiling...
this silly girl who is 1 year older than me was always around for me and we got even close with this year's project...
i really can't imagine life without her...
as what they say... i dont believe a shit about what ppl speak of her...
because i know her... and i will stand up for her... i love yiling too!
and vanitha... this girl... attachments brought us closer too...
with recent projects and all the lunch and matters that we braved through together...
helping each other in attachment times had really been fun, truthful and sweet...
straightforward is her point... =)
puvan... she may be talkative.. and i am just almost as talkative as her...
she is sweet and kind by nature...
ppl dunno her would only look at her point of weakness and not her strong point...
she is a good friend... she's someone that you have to know her...
there may be delays in work and all, but everyone needs their little push...
i don't mind doing pushing... because i know when i need the push, she will be there to push me, give me a pat on the back and tell me to jiayou and not give up...
and sha... this girl that i give her my utmost respect...
a shy personality with a nature that you have to truly look into...
she is sweet... true... and you know you can always count on her...
this girl... we cried together in the canteen today...
how could i forget that? the squeeze in our hands..
the bond and the friendship... the stress and love in our hearts just came pouring out...
she was always there for me whenever i needed a listening ear...
a shoulder to lie on... and she is caring...
a heart that does not need shattering...
that's my conclusion...
if anyone does shatter theirs, i probably will break their legs first...
i dunno how i can do it as in break their legs...
maybe get a wooden plank?
and my love of my life...
abeely chong yao bang...
i really wish to be the one who will walk my dear pampers wrapped pixie with him...
hand in hand... down the road... in the park... at the beach...
now that things has happened...
i really hope that this will bring us stronger than before...
i'm getting mushy...
i love you... i really do...
from the bottom, top, up, down, left, right, every piece of my heart says so...
don't ever break my heart okay?
today is a super long heartfelt post...
because right now...
sha must be sleepin, so is pu...
i felt good that i told them i love them...
and miss L aka PMS oso very emo cuz PAS... lol.. only he knows it...
i will miss him so much...
and darling is online...
with me... he says it feels so weird that he's not with me at home...
i miss being around you too...
tonight let me hug my pampers girl to sleep k?
let us dream to our future tonight...
and to my girls...
whatever is in hold for us tomorrow is not important anymore right?
because we've found what we have been looking for...
crucify us for all we care...
our friendship will always be there...
and sheena, stop cutting ur hair... i miss you...
georg, angela, jolyn... u guys too...
meet up real soon k?
and jun rui my pri sch bestie!!!
loves loves...
ur survey really very long...
i miss you too girl...
meet up someday in school k?
still gt a few others that went unmentioned...
hehe... dont kill me hor..
dabian boifwen...
pacik lil boy...
tyang...
and alot more of you in my sec sch days...
okay... never ever forget elaine yong!!!!!
i love her can... =D
the smallest thing...
can have the biggest meaning...
and...
the smallest though...
can have the biggest effect...
true friends...
seek for them...
and poof...
they are just in front of you...
only the true speaks their mind...
only the false choose to hide...
naive is my first name...
check yours and see what you hide...
6:49 PM.
" Sunday, July 22, 2007
please take care my friend...
sorry that i couldnt go down...
but please do take care of yourself...
Each player of the game starts off by giving 6
weird things about themselves. People who get
tagged needs to write in a blog of their own 6
weird things as well as state the rules clearly.
In the end, you’ll need to choose 6 people to be
tagged and list their names.
1) I can laugh over an Office Lady/Old Lady joke for days till i cry... (Thank you Kenneth...)
2) Alouis
3) Pacik- Zhi Wen
4) Zi Gui
5) Boifwen- Damien Wong Delong
6) Peisi- NR0512
Anyway...
start of my blogging...
Friday had to stay in school till real late to do project...
but yeah... baby came to fetch me to go AMK Hub together...
=)
feels good to see my pig boy...
toot face!!!!
Smirk what huh!!!
wah... nw wan act cool le lo...
bleahs...
i take pic... dun take u liaoz...
Our seat number...
my food!!!
lamb & chicken w egg!!!
nice hor? hehe...
Pepper Lunch on me!!!
Cuz baby got the tix for our movie...
Anyway... my saturday was slacking and doing nothing at baby's house...
he la... so pig... -_-!!!
sleep sleep sleep...
i play game w/o him...
den he wake up and disturb me... haha...
but he play my games den he lose...
oops... but he still break my record...
went out for dinner w baby's mummy, daddy and da jie...
it was when patty mei mei called..
i kena shocked by the news...
I seriously hope that simon would be better by now...
Was supposed to eat baby's favourite duck rice at kallang but his mummy say dun wan...
LOL... too bad! =P =X
had my favourite S21 BBQ wings from sembawang!!!
woot... plus the zhu chao...
nice nice... drools...
i only ate 2 wings lor... haha... or so i think...
bought durians from geylang den bring back home to eat...
wah... eat till damn full with lotsa mangosteens chosen by my piggy darling!!!
den i go play my game again...
dar bathe finish come disturb me so i drag him to camwhore...
actually dun nid to drag la...
he very camwhore oso de... (dont act hor!!! =P)
click click...
flash flash...
why ur eyes so big?
wad a gay pose!!!!! haha...
baby's gay...
shocked!!!
he tried to bite me!!!
ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my eyes.... that guy is scary...
muacks u this big lazy pig...
look like 深情的吻 hor? hehe...
i like this the most...
the way you look at me... =)
anyway...
it's a sunday!!!
i've gt group meeting at 11am...
or rather... i had...
now i'm home...
did management...
woot... we're almost done...
thank god...
love you guys!!!
i still have minutes of meeting left but should nt be too difficult to do la... =D
dunno if Miss Bella will change the day of presentation or not...
but yeah...
i need to start studying...
Soon...
Did i mention that i got my package this morning?
My lovely little present to myself...
Woot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can't wait to read it...
*beams Beams*
poor baby now doing COS...
jiayou piggy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*loves loves*
it's the differences..
tt made me realise...
i miss you more than i think i do...
11:59 PM.
" Thursday, July 19, 2007
Had my theory test for clinical skills ytd...
never expected defibrillation to appear for SAQ...
only a few people i our class spotted it...
so oh well, wishing for the best...
anyway, ytd had KFC w baby at Lot 1 to get the stress out of me...
and today i had my prac test...
before prac test, decided to camwhore...
when i was supposed to be studying... LOL... *FAINT*
the pic tt i like... hehe...
meow! hehe...
yiling & miie...
i like this better out of all 3...
my favorite yl!!!
hehe... best attachment mates and grp mates hor!!!
zhang shan... hehe... poor girl...
she was my partner for prac test today...
she down w flu lo...
hope she gets better... look damn pale hor...
oops... her photo, eyes closed...
puvan and me!!!
u can nvr resist debating together w her against vani!!!
hehe... it's fun... =P =X
and this photo w her hair let down...
sha & miie...
sweet lady ok...
responsible, good results, nice...
what more can you ask for?
haha... anyway... i got air viva function test...
did okay only...
just now was blog hopping...
marie, jiayou! =)
lab skill test number 2 on thursday...
sha's tml...
she sure will pass w flying colors de...
jiayou! u can do it!
this time round on Central Venous Pressure monitoring, Endotracheal Tube Suctioning and Endotracheal Tube Intubation...
tml gotta practices somemore...
and lotsa projects to do...
now rushing my 3107, sociology of work...
so tired...
glad is i finished my BLEACH!!!
i watched up till episode 132!!! =D
just nw debated a lil w baby on unnecessary stuff...
miscomm but yeah...
when things get better, u eventually will think tt they will stay this way...
it's always, eventually, BUT, things tend to like to go the opposite direction...
saturday maybe wont be going out...
so oh well... so be it...
baby may have to go back camp, so just... nvm...
rather stay home rot and sleep than to go out half way den phone ring, go back camp...
will be damn -_- right?
no choice, cant help it.
tml gt 3107, 3106 and management projects to do...
stress...
who can uds...
sigh...
nt tt we did have time, but the project scheduling in our class is so weird...
if only the whole class came to a consensus on meeting days for individual projects...
the 2 weeks holidays certainly did not help...
plus... tml must prac for my lab skill number 2...
sigh...
someone save me...
i need a shoulder to rest on, will you be the one...?
to support me when i am down?
believe in me when no one does?
love me and care for me like never before?
whisper magic words into my ears to make my day?
kiss me when i'm awake and hug me when i'm asleep?
i need to find those answers...
confused...
will you?
efforts are seen w time...
i dunno...
maybe it's just a one sided wish.
11:51 PM.
" Tuesday, July 17, 2007
just got pictures from puvan today...
uploaded only 2...
but yeah, we didnt take alot la...
LOL...
me, vani, sha and our lect grp mate...(sorry i dunno how to spell ur name)
sha, pu, vani and me... =)
anyway... studying for my HS 3041 now...
gt lab test tml...
sigh... i will jiayou...
thank u baby for my wake up call...
i am so tired...
today attachment schedule out le...
thank god i have yiling w me, a good reason to smile for...
anyway... this schedule, some ppl we wan in our grp, nt in, some ppl we dun wan, we see them... super duper sian... but on the brighter note, thank god i have yiling... =)
exam timetable, and 2nd lab test is on thursday...
when the 1st one nt even over yet... =(
jiayou le!
every min...
of my life...
it's you...
that made it bright...
and it's you...
that makes me shine...
HEARTX.
11:04 PM.
" Monday, July 16, 2007
today supposed to study de...
but here i am blogging after chatting w dar over the phone...
just now went to grandma house after school...
=)
i miss ah ma... and ah gong...
i see him so thin... my heart aches again...
everytime hear mummy talking bout ah gong i will keep fighting off the temptation to cry...
he keeps having suicidal thoughts due to his friends around him passing away and having illness and all...
and he keeps claiming that he's down with one when he's perfectly alright...
really pretty worried...
i can't stand the thought of losing anyone of them.... ="(
i rmem the days when he used to bring my cousins and i around the neighbourhood, buying fries for us to eat...
playing card games with us..
gambling with us on Chinese New Year...
playing mahjong with me at chalet...
watching him snore away with his mouth wide open on the sofa...
his tummy was so round and looked so comfy back then...
now... he just looks so depressed...
that seeing him smile for one weeny bit is so precious...
like just now... when he saw tt i was at ah ma house, he managed a smile slowly when i called him gong gong...
realising this, i just cant seem to stop the tears...
i just miss him and is afraid of losing him you know?
the feeling is so great...
i just hope for his, ah ma's and mummy's good health...
i love them... with all my heart...
i know they cant see this...
but i still wanna say...
ah gong, ah ma and mummy... i love you...
and i really do...
nurses do what they do best...
but yeah, when it comes to my own family...
i guess i'm just a weak human...
ok... i shall end here...
i'm very tired... and i have to study...
at least go through the whole book before i sleep...
i promised myself to do that... =)
thank u 三姨 for all the encouragement and listening ear... i love you too... =)
did i mention tt my exam timetable is out?
i will jiayou...
baby...
i need you...
to hold me close now...
at my weakeast point...
and...
at my strongest point...
12:45 AM.
" Sunday, July 15, 2007
i had sort of a wonderful weekend...
friday watched harry potter with georg and pacik..
it was nice... hehe... but i liked the book better still..
baby came to meet me after that...
really cheer up my day alot alot... =D
saturday had work and was quite sad cuz i couldnt get the ipod casing tt i wanted to buy...
the shop closed way too early... ="(
maybe no fate w it ba... but caught a pretty great movie with my pig darling...
My Wife Is A Gangster 3...
by shu qi... really nice... laughed alot...
and yeah... should have seen our tired faces when we took NR home...
shag... haha.. we had drinks each...
mine was vodka lemon and his jack daniel w coke...
i liked mine better...
den we went thru this educational show called "中华ink雄"...
my baby was in it when he was still in Ngee Ann year 3...
and he won... LOL...
and darling looked damn damn chubby lor.. hehe...
so cuute...
anyway... baby gave me a present after that...
a cuute big cushion dog w massaging effect...
cuute hor?
i love it alot...
he's name is doggy...
replacing the one tt i had for my childhood days...
so happy... hope xixi dont chew him up..
anyway... we had Fish & Co's ocean platter today...
hehe... eat till damn full... great meal w great company...
baby's toot picture...
hehe... look at this picture... i like it alot... hehe...
took it when we were on our way to Fish & Co..
at FISH & CO!!!
toot!!! act cuute... hehe...
*pouts pouts*
my favorite cream of mushroom!!! hehe...
did i mention tt baby bought a pair of new converse?
he is so admiring it like every second la...
and tt pig shopped w ming xue so much on saturday!!
sinful!!!
pose pose...
hehe.. my charming baby!!!
=D *smiles*
there's alot of ppl to thank for my great weekend...
First is my baby... for putting up w my bad temper and all the effort...
ILU...
Next is... alot of them to thank la...
georg, pacik, mizael, william, alot of them la...
this is all i can think of now... hehe...
my days are shining... =)
unstoppable... the good days are coming...
preparing for exams soon!
baby's sleeping now...
i miss him...
2:45 PM.
" Saturday, July 14, 2007
Meow!
now at cine shop...
kenneth change me over last night...
my sales nt bad... =)
*beams*
yup... anyway...
just saw the tag in my board like a few minutes ago...
the person sounded totally convincing and experienced.
haha... anyway... this person made my day happy.. thank you so much... =D
*beams*
this person be it girl or guy just think that he or she is so cool...
way to go!!! =D
anyway... this is my sweet reply...
"hello there... you sound seriously experienced... woot... are you a whore? oops. sorry... did i just insult you? woah... you're seriously funny... thanks for the hearty laughter... :D try harder next time... =) :beam:"
well... if you dont like me, dont come to my blog like anyway... =)
nt for you also la...
i dont think i have friends that sound like they have been in a porn star movie since young! haha...
ooh... i feel sorry for you... oops... hehe...
dont bother to reply oso...
i wun entertain you again...
let you have your five seconds of fame this time...
only this time okay kiddo? so sorry...
no space to put you up in my blog...
abit wastage... *smiles*
Loves Loves...
tickle tickle!!!
hehe...
11:59 PM.
" Thursday, July 12, 2007
just now went nyte market w pacik...
cuz acc him makan dinner at 888...
he at western... damn the fattening... LOL..
anyway... did i mention tt baby and i have a blog?
haha... sounds cheesy i know... but yeah... we like it... he likes it... i like it too...
the skin is nice...
the contents is ermz... maybe abit lovey dovey i suppose?
our communication tool...
anyway... i bought like 30 bucks worth of food home...
god save me...
hehe...
and baby and i were talking about the clubbing issue...
if i really do love clubbing so much, i would have went tonyte la... so...
yeah... proves it.. plus...
tonyte is probably the last time tt i can club, the next time wont be anytime soon...
so yeah... here i am... good girl... at home..
slacking... sleeping soon...
tml gt prac test... i will jiayou... pray for me please... =)
and yeah... finish updating baby's ipod le...
i need to upload shows into my phone!!!
i miss bleach for like years...
i think i stopped at episode 112...
like sigh... dabian boifwen... burn and gib me lehs... SOBX...
oh ya... sorry wow wow jie mei...
you have fun k?
i nt going TF... so so so sorry...
okiez.. i miss baby...
yawnz... and he taking damn long to reply my messages...
must be puffing away or playing cards or something...
sad... -_- *bird face* this is the face i always like to give him...
hehe... bleahs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you this PIG!!!!!
baby nvr eat... think there the ppl torturing him...
想你，
爱你，
心里都是你。
我的猪头男友！
3:55 PM.
"
hehe... back from school...
another day... today is a happy day..
nope, i ain't going for TF...
cuz pacik ain't going and jolyn's heading for Zouk...
georg wanna stay till 1st train which is like super crazy...
so yeah, i'm nt going... haha..
anyway, hope my dear georg is feeling better...
i won't talk about the things and all but ya, i love you!!!
i'm ur sms and phone call away!!! =D
had practice lab early in the morning..
10am... and i practiced my air viva function test and airway management that is going to be tested tml by Miss Cynthia...
after practice, i have confidence in my prac...
actually most of the times i don't practice alot during normal times is because either i already understand the concept or i know i won't remem unless it's till assessment day... =P =X
excuses for me... hehe...
but yeah... My senior is confident is me and so is baby... =)
i'm glad to have mr willy to guide me for my yr 3... hehe... thank you so much really...
all the moral support, advices and all...
i appreciate it big time...
and baby, the one that i know that i should always count on?
i miss that PIG... like seriously... hehe...
anyway... i did a little test ytd and i scored...
spot on man!!! woot...
so it kinda made my day... hehe...
happy happy...
glad to see sha smiling away too...
and we all know the reason, don't we? =P
oops.. haha...
and ahmad and his burger theory,i hear liaoz keep laughing...
oh ya... tt day ben msn me re my ppt...
thanks for the constructive advice, really...
at least i know rehan and ben's comments comes from the heart as they really mean it by helping ppl... nt the other way round...
and i realised...
my site meter nt on my blog...
zzzzz... no fun... tt time it reached 999 on one of the day lo...
and 1k plus the subsequent days... LOL...
it's bo liaoz la... but really nthin to do mahz...
and u see the number grow like as if it's ur bank's savings... haha..
ok... i'm so crappy... hehe...
oh yeah...
any kind hearted ladies wanna intro themselves to my guy friend?
can show u his friendster? hehe...
matchmake matchmake... oops...
seriously we ain't very close la... but yeah...
he shares his problems with me and all, so i guess we can say 谈得来。
but yeah... let's just hope he gets over his screwed up life and let the feelings for that "NICE" girl fades...
i just hope that things will get better... cheer up k, my friend?
i'm just a msn away!!! haha... that is if i am online...
sorry dude.. i very tired tt y cannot acc u talk on msn...
but anyway, back to my life...
i've been reading quite alot of books again...
i miss reading... and it's good...
haven't done any proper reading since tt time i keep hanging out with ppl tt i dun like and wasting my friggin life knowing some ppl tt i cant even be bothered about...
so yeah... i'm glad tt my hobby's back in town...
gotta start studying too...
tml i will wake up friggin early k...
this is a promise to myself...
hehe...
i will go for Miss Chia's lecture tml!!!
8am hor... mai siao siao...
but yeah... i can do it!!!!
way to go miss meow... jiayou to myself... =D
and oh ya.. jus nw my pri sch fwen, von left me a comment in friendster...
i got same bikini as her!!! LOL... woot...
see...
we both gt good taste k...
and she's sexay mama!!!
please vote for her at the 校花校草 programme...
to think of it, i didn't get back to TNP's msg...
den tt day Cindy from TNP called and ask me to go for audition this saturday but yeah, i said no.
because it ain't my forte anyway...
sorry Mr Wee and Miss Janette...
ok la... i damn longwinded...
gotta go sleep le...
wonder how many visitors i have today...
drop a tag before leaving k? =D
i've always wondered...
u proved me right!!!
hehe...
so happy...
i cant bear to hate you...
loves loves...
1:28 AM.
"
just came back from meeting pacik and lainie!!!
haha... we had a feast... so sinful... LOL...
gluttons inc... hehe...
anyway...
dunno y tried to get some songs but like cannot..
sadded big time lehs...
nvm... tryin hard...
last nyte before meetin the biatches...
was talkin to my fwen about his love life...
and i realised that there are so many guys and girls who are like so duh...
when they first get into a r/s, they love each other like never before...
then when they are about to break up, things happen...
the one who wants a break up always give excuses like i dun love u anymore...
becuz u did this this this, making the other party feel extremely guilty...
then they will suggest to still be friends... which never happens actually...
den when the hurt party tries to make up for it...
there he is...
at the doorstep of his recently ex, now has become someone else's gf in just a mere 2 days later...
tell me how sad is that...
and she still kept giving him excuses saying that she did not leave him because of the other guy...
worst is... my fwen actually knows this guy!!!
and it's like the guy was all yaya and all, nt guilty for breaking up one's happiness...
maybe they just ain't meant for each other but this action like damn f lehs...
worst is the girl still pretend to be a good person to the whole world lor...
*FAINT* like gimme a break... (i think i've seen it somewhere before...)
i seriously feel for my friend...
he was so upset and all...
can't concentrate on studies, losing his appetite...
he would rather the girl be truthful to him...
why hurt him with all those supposed excuses when she actually left for another guy?
this applies to both gender i guess...
i think it's these ppl tt somehow contributes to the homo population...
nt tt i've gt anythin against homos... but yeah... i think those ppl who did all the stuff is so duh can...
like why are they so childish to lie about this kinda stuff...
try to hide and then after that get found out about...?
i see my friend like tt, i damn sian lo... these ppl really damn f up...
too high an ego keep thinking that she is very important in his life...
pls lor... u were once important... now, u aint at all...
so if u are reading this. which is so unlikely. BUT.
yeah... i think u should seriously get a life... for whatsoever reasons u have for leaving, lying is no excuse.. right?
like come on lor... by doing this, u are just hurting my friend more...
*FAINT* big time...
and yesh, for that guy...
nt tt i wanna say bad about ppl...but ya, if she can walk out on my friend for u, one day, she will do the same to you for all u know...
i knoe everyone deserves a chance...
but yeah... like they always say...
treat others as how u would want them to treat you...
so ya... haha... they call this karma...
time to reflect... and get a life...
stop hurting my friend... go away... stay far far...
guys dont cry often.. and you hurt my friend...
make me so angry... -_- zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!! @#$%ABCFK!?HWSB@#$%^!!!!
whew... finally got it out of me...ytd so angry lo when my friend tell me...
how can anyone be so bitch or bastard siahz...
i guess there is alot around then...
haha...
anyway... time to upload photos!!!
see the 3 supposed best durians tt the biatches sheena & angela bought...
yummy but yeah... hell...
heaty... sigh... and i just recovered from fever... -_-
the 7 durians altogether...
woot.. makan... SORE THROAT...
thanks arhs girls...
really thanks for the durian but yeah...
SOBX... my throat...
and all the sinful food from just now!!!
ranging from my lovely salmon sashimi...
to sambal stingray, sambal sotong and fried egg w prawns...
plus zhu chang fen w char siew and prawns...
woot!!!
haha... so sinful...
i going to die la...
and hor... the sprain of my old injury of my foot is back...
baby say he heartpain me keep fallin sick and all...
(tsk tsk, tt's why i need someone to take care of me what... hehe... give u this job, don't hiam hor... bleahs...)
hurts... oh well...
part and parcel of life...
who tell me to be so sporty since young... LOL...
i only slack in poly ok... hehe...
time to go run again soon...
talkin to junior,xiao kai...
he tell me harry potter nt nice...
sad... i gt the tix le... pacik and georg watchin w me on friday lehs...
sian la... sobx.. i wan my harry potter book.. hehe...
pls come quick... i am just any other girl w a kid heart k...
at least i stil have a kid in me...
and yesh... i cannot believe tt shaun is actually 23!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
faint... i all along tot my dear pals dragonboat junior is 18 lehs...
u win le la... he was in NS for 5 yrs... faint...
so hard to see la... aiyo...
i think we 2 stand tgt, everybody will know i older siahz...
but yeah... i'm barely 19!!! hehe...
it's true ok...
my birthday in oct lo... still long... haha...
he come invade our canteen today... LOL...
bright as usual!!!
he say i look damn tired... i guess it's the lack of sleep and all...
thanks to NYP's presentation...
anyway... thank you so much for the concern!!! =D
shaun is one of my most helpful and nicest junior k... =)
(even though he's older by the fact.. faint...)
ALL the best in organising the water sports camp!!!
u can do it!!! jiayou!!!
it's 1.39am...
oh ya... TF maybe nvr go le...
see how ba... if pacik nt going, shaowei nt going...
i'm out... kena tahan la if wait for morning train... LOL...
and miss L is tryin tp appoint me the hair leader...
i tryin to drag him to be no hair leader of pals family...
hehe... we damn lame... hehe... but funny...
yawn...
my baby's gonna sleep...
he do whole day of duty le... so ke lian...
*sayang*
i miss that pig...
hope everything's gonna be well for us two...
i wan my hug!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pixie... where are yoo...
hehe... i go drag ah xixi go sleep le..
yawns...
if only...
everyday...
was perfect...
it would be good...
let's just give in...
ur best.
my best.
our best.
smile like u mean it!!!
1:27 PM.
" Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Now in bella's lecture...
so sorry tt i cant pay attention...
i am so tired...
and we finished our presentation for Nursing Project!!! yay!!!
woot! thank god...
Miss Evelyn actually tot we were nt prepared...
nope, we were... =D
thank you for appreciating our work...
and thank u rehan for being our participant...
and those comments from our class...
thank you...
if it really is for the good for us, i really appreciate it...
i dun care whoever is reading this right now....
but i have got to agree tt our booklet was small...
i agree tt the size has to be changed...
but we were not doing health implementation...
it's media resource, so it's a whole...
different from what you guys are doing...
seriously, constructive feedback, thank you...
we appreciate it...
sometimes...
i think...
when u give ppl ur heartfelt comments and really wish for their good...
ppl can really feel it...
so maybe it all comes down to non hypocrital heart..
think about it...
if u have one, congratulations.
and yesh... i love my grp for all the hard work...
below is some photos...
lovely pu and me... she came to help me with the dice!!!
thank u so so so so much....
our grp's first photo...
i think i flexed my arm too much...
zzzz... i look damn muscular? haha...
the final photo!!! i think i look weird here...
anyway..
sheena u this pig...
i nvr fly ur aeroplane ok...
i was down w fever and was rushing my project on Sunday lor... -_-
thank u lehs...
kns...
anyhow accuse me...
shoot u to death arh...
u dun wan go de lor...
dun drag me down hor... bleahs... =P =X
i go pay attention to lecture le...
nt feeling well again...
baby...
i miss you...
do you?
12:56 AM.
"
busy with nursing project and sadly speaking...
my 3106 has not been done yet...
cant really help it now...
truly feel damn guilty...
sha oso haven do... hope tml we do tgt ba...
just kinda finished my nursing project...
excited but tired...
my headache is real bad...
and so does my heart...
close ones should know by now...
but yeah, i will walk it through..
brave it through...
i dunno what's in my future...
i can only strive and pray...
fever keeps going on and off...
and i almost froze to death this morning in school before lab...
gotta wake up early again...
gt rehearsal... i will jiayou de...
and did i mention?
i love my group...
we have our differences...
be it in personality, race, nope, no gender diff...
but 1 thing is we all love each other somehow... =)
i am proud of all of you...
many thanks to sha sha for all the pictures...
great thanks to yiling for the jingle and lyrics...
tonnes of thanks to all who helped vanitha and puvan with their wordsearch...
and millions of thanks to all who cheered me up along this path of never return...
i promise...
i will do my best...
wait and see for my results k?
i will bring back the glory..
did i mention we stayed in sch till 8 plus?
sha left at 7... the rest of us stayed till 8 plus...
reach home 9 plus... bathe and dinner, 10 plus...
SHAG...
baby...
do you know...
how much i miss you?
the tears that have dried...
my heart cannot lie...
it's all i can say...
and maybe the rest up to you...
